the wake up call

I have a confession to make. I thought I was ready for this & wanted it bad enough to tough it out... But yesterday I realised that wasn't true. I have talked about wanting to reach my goals for a long time, but I didn't want it enough.


Last week was actually the first reality check I received... I found out the show I'm in (and my only source of income) is going to end in 6 weeks. I haven't been out of full time work in 2.5yrs and that thought is a scary one. What in the world am I going to do once this finishes? Am I ready to be thrown back into the audition scene or have I become too complacent in my current position?


The big shock was yesterday when I met with a potential agent who basically spent half an hour telling me how inexperienced and unprepared I am to achieve the goals I'm setting for myself. I had a choice to make... Take what she said to heart, have a big cry and give up - or get angry and prove her wrong. Thankfully I chose the latter.


Right now there is a fire lit in my belly and all I see is the goals I want to achieve and NOTHING is going to stop me from achieving them. I have 6 weeks left of work, income & stability and I am NOT going to waste them. Michelle Bridges says in her "Losing The Last 5 Kilos" book that you have to want it bad. Cuz it's going to be hard and it will involve a lot of sacrifices. She also says there's no such thing as "motivation". It's never there on a cold dark morning when you need to roll out of bed and get to the gym. All there is is consistency. You get up and just do it. Or as she likes to say "J.F.D.I" (you figure it out).


And so, my friends, that is what I will do. If I want to walk the walk, I need to stop talking about it and JFDI. I have taken updated measurements & photos as there were a few false starts since they were last done... I will post them tomorrow and also specify what kind of calorie intake & exercise will be required for some serious results. Ideally 1kg a week, but hoping I can kick start it with a bit more in the first 10 days as there's an audition coming up that requires a leotard. Enough said.


Time to hit the hay and achieve my first goal of getting enough rest to allow me to get to the gym at least once tomorrow as well as performing in 2 shows. Until next time...