Monday, August 15, 2011

some theories


1. I have some O.C.D. tendencies, which includes perfectionism and the need for everything to be tied up in a neat little bow. “Day one” always needs to be a Monday or even better, the first day of the month. Problem: failing by Tuesday means I have an entire week to binge eat due to the depression about failure (and therefore not being perfect) until the next day one.

2. My self-esteem gets flushed down the toilet every time I look in a mirror. Problem: my house, gym and workplace are FULL of them. Feeling too fat to go to the gym may sound ridiculous and ironic, but why should I have to stare at all the bulges while I’m trying to get rid of them?!

3. I use food both to celebrate and to mourn… as both a punishment and a reward for anything that may or may not happen in my life. Problem: due to being a highly emotional person (as well as very self-critical), there are lot of ups and downs and that leads to eating a lot more food than my body requires.

4. The second I ban any food from my diet, it’s ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT. Combine this with the emotional eating and the problem is self-explanatory.

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