the week that was

Instead of labelling last week as a failure, I'm going to call it "the week of trial and error". Hit the gym 5 days in a row which is definitely a record. Can't actually remember the last time I managed that, so yay for that. Diet... well... let's just say I got a little off track. Somehow my appetite saw the extra calories  as unlimited calories and I ate and ate and ate... Not good. Definitely seeing the damage in the mirror and on the scales but I'm back on track now. To be honest, the stress has been building again regarding money & lack of employment and it was basically a big ol' stress binge that lasted 7 days. Oops.


But here I am now... I've cleared my head and let go of the last week. I slept well and woke up feeling clearer and more positive (despite nothing having changed) and I'm ready to get back to my 100% commitment. Even better, there's a competition starting on www.burnthefatinnercircle.com and I am determined to enter, achieve my goals and WIN! I'm at a disadvantage having already achieved some good results and being a lot closer to my goals than others, but this has only motivated me to set my sights higher and reach for goals than I hadn't thought possible in the past.


The competition begins in a week - it's tempting to have another week long binge so I have more to lose when I start, but I already feel like crap after last week so no more sabotage. This week I will be doing everything within my power to prep my mind and body for an intense 49 day challenge (7 weeks) and come next Monday, I will be a force to be reckoned with.


The following posts will show all the preparation work I have been and will be doing... First up I'll post my goals and positive affirmations (a mandatory exercise in chapter one of Burn The Fat) - I'll put a blurb underneath those so you know how to come up with your own and how to use them. Then I'll post both my meal & diet plans and finally, the initial measurements & photos (which have to be updated weekly as part of the competition). 


Now let me get one thing straight - so far on this blog I've had many "fresh starts" and attempts (even some fantastic results) that didn't get me over the finish line. This time is different. I'm at a point in my life where if I don't finally get it together and ditch all the excuses, I may as well give up. I am so sick of trying and failing and self-sabotage and self-loathing. This is my time to put it all to rest. 


I know EXACTLY what I need to do to achieve this and there are no excuses left. I don't care if I have no money or I'm dealing with anxiety & depression about my work situation... This isn't about having the "perfect conditions" - I can achieve this whether I'm working 7 days a week or 0 days a week. It's about knowledge, discipline and consistency and none of those things have anything to do with outside circumstances. It's about me. I am the ONLY one to blame if I don't do it... And so this is me doing it.