Alright folks, the moment is nigh. I have thoroughly enjoyed my final day of food freedom (though feeling quite bloated & a little ill) but I'm getting really excited about 2012. For once I am in the right place at the right time and I am raring to go. While I've tried to avoid "day one's" as much as possible, my ultimate day one is here and I'm going to embrace it wholeheartedly. All my mistakes are erased but the lessons I learnt will be with me forever.
2012 is the year I've been waiting for. I gave up virtually everything to move to a strange (in more ways than one) country to follow my dreams and have been doing everything I can to keep my head above water until things start to happen. Every time I thought we'd hit rock bottom, we managed to find a new low. I've never been so broke or scared in all my life... But I'm writing this now so that means I survived and (dare I say it) thrived.
I'm working on my 2012 goals & affirmations as we speak and there'll be a huge amount of posting tomorrow to get them up as well as all the usual stuff plus (as much as I'm dreading it) photos. I wasn't going to do photos but I think they're the most exciting way to track progress when the scales lie & we over-analyse in the mirror. That should do it for now... no point in saying anything else for the time being except farewell, 2011 - you were tough on me but you made me a stronger, wiser person!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
groundhog day
Yep, me again. Another awful day in paradise. KFC for lunch & burgers for dinner - realised that until 2012 is here and my parents are gone, it's just too hard to stop. I'm saying farewell to all my favourite (and even not so favourite) dodgy foods and while I feel fat & disgusting, I'm just putting that out of my mind for another 24 hours because that's when it all changes.
The longer this binge has gone on, the more ready I am for it to end. I don't know how people eat this way all the time - it's just gross! Yes, I'll miss some of it, but I will NOT miss how I feel by eating it... It affects me emotionally, mentally & physically. Hmm - that reminds me of "Supersize Me" the doco... I can totally relate and think I should maybe watch it again for one last shock to the system to kick me back into the realm of health & fitness.
Anyways exhausted now... All that eating really takes it out of me! Better catch some Z's in preparation for the last supper. Catch you on the flip side.
The longer this binge has gone on, the more ready I am for it to end. I don't know how people eat this way all the time - it's just gross! Yes, I'll miss some of it, but I will NOT miss how I feel by eating it... It affects me emotionally, mentally & physically. Hmm - that reminds me of "Supersize Me" the doco... I can totally relate and think I should maybe watch it again for one last shock to the system to kick me back into the realm of health & fitness.
Anyways exhausted now... All that eating really takes it out of me! Better catch some Z's in preparation for the last supper. Catch you on the flip side.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
back as promised
Would love to tell you that the road-trip involved nothing but salads and 10km runs but I would be lying. You know how I said I wasn't too concerned about my calorie intake yesterday? Umm, that was before I did the math. Yesterday and the day before I consumed 2900 cal PER DAY. Today was 2600. Disgusting. It adds up SO quickly. McDonalds IS the devil. As is Coca Cola, ice cream, chocolate, buffet breakfasts, short bread, Jatz & hot chocolates. Yeah, I ate it all.
Working tomorrow which is annoying but probably for the best as I need to get AWAY FROM FOOD! I will bring my meal bars, have oats for breakfast & vegetables for dinner. Will attempt to do a semi-fast on Saturday (fill up on miso soup & veggies) so I can enjoy my Indian & apple crumble but I tell ya what... I am ready for it to be over. Day after day of this is not fun. I feel huge & bloated & guilty & constantly have a sore tummy. My body hates me and I hate myself.
...But enough of the pity party since it was self-inflicted anyway! I promise the posts will start to improve very soon. In the meantime, it's time for bed & finally a proper catch up on sleep. Hopefully some bloating will subside over night and I can have a good 40hrs of, well, NOT stuffing my face before my final feast for the year (and my life?). G'night world.
Working tomorrow which is annoying but probably for the best as I need to get AWAY FROM FOOD! I will bring my meal bars, have oats for breakfast & vegetables for dinner. Will attempt to do a semi-fast on Saturday (fill up on miso soup & veggies) so I can enjoy my Indian & apple crumble but I tell ya what... I am ready for it to be over. Day after day of this is not fun. I feel huge & bloated & guilty & constantly have a sore tummy. My body hates me and I hate myself.
...But enough of the pity party since it was self-inflicted anyway! I promise the posts will start to improve very soon. In the meantime, it's time for bed & finally a proper catch up on sleep. Hopefully some bloating will subside over night and I can have a good 40hrs of, well, NOT stuffing my face before my final feast for the year (and my life?). G'night world.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
another day
Well it was far from a perfect day but got up early to head to the gym for a third day in a row (despite not getting enough sleep and nearly every muscle in my body already aching). Maaay have had some dodgy fast food today due to being in road-trip mode, not regretting it too much - more concerned about having a good time right now due to only having my parents around for a few more days.
The plan is to have a buffet breakfast tomorrow but then have minimal food for the rest of the day and I'm working the day after so will be very strict then too. Basically be as good as possible until our Indian feast on New Years Eve and then it is ON. 100% commitment - no exceptions.
For the first two weeks in January, I'm working 4 days a week & won't be able to get to the gym those days due to a long commute so I'll be doing double gym days Mon-Wed & try to get in an exercise video the other days. Will be on 1500-1600 calories those days and 1300 on work days. Though, due to only needing to lose 0.5kg a week it will be okay if I go over a bit - just not with dodgy food... Clean eating only.
Anyways it's late and I have an early start. Boring post, I know - but just sticking to my promise of daily posting. Until next time...
The plan is to have a buffet breakfast tomorrow but then have minimal food for the rest of the day and I'm working the day after so will be very strict then too. Basically be as good as possible until our Indian feast on New Years Eve and then it is ON. 100% commitment - no exceptions.
For the first two weeks in January, I'm working 4 days a week & won't be able to get to the gym those days due to a long commute so I'll be doing double gym days Mon-Wed & try to get in an exercise video the other days. Will be on 1500-1600 calories those days and 1300 on work days. Though, due to only needing to lose 0.5kg a week it will be okay if I go over a bit - just not with dodgy food... Clean eating only.
Anyways it's late and I have an early start. Boring post, I know - but just sticking to my promise of daily posting. Until next time...
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
the deets
Alright I've been crunching the numbers and have a plan in place. So below is a table I'll be filling out over the 9 weeks to track my progress but also to break my goal up into smaller (and less daunting) pieces. Obviously the body doesn't always work how we'd like it to so I imagine some weeks I'll beat the goal and others won't quite hit it. That's cool. I'm prepared for that and will keep plodding along. The good news is I am a lot closer to my goal that I originally thought... While I've been feeling quite heavy, turns out a lot of it is muscle and my body fat hasn't gone up much despite the Christmas debauchery so I'm aiming to lose 4kg of fat to reach my goal of 13% body fat.
Hmm... I lost my table grid but it's getting late so can't be bothered doing that again - will attempt to fix it for next time. My parents are staying with us at the moment and due to New Years happening in a couple of days, I'm not aiming for perfection with my diet until they leave (1st Jan). Until then I'll be good when I can but still enjoy a few treats (namely alcohol, Indian food & homemade apple crumble on New Years Eve - yum!). Come January first however, it's down to business. Audition season is around the corner and I need to be ready for it!
We're going away tomorrow for a couple of days but I'm bringing the computer so I'll attempt to be in touch during that time. As far as my first two days went - got to the gym and back into my weights. Yesterday's food was alright (went slightly over with calories) but was struggling with carb withdrawals and that made me extremely agitated (you'd think I was coming off drugs) and today *was* going well until dinner when I had bread with my roast chicken & vege then Christmas pudding & icecream & a wine cocktail for dessert. Let's just say I was celebrating the fact I only have 4kg to lose rather than 7! Seriously though - the second my parents leave there's no more funny business. Anyways gotta go pack and be up for a gym sesh before heading to Rotorua - bye for now!
Date | Goal Weight | Actual | Change | Goal BF% | Actual | Change |
26/12/11 | - | 60kg | - | 18.67% | ||
2/01/12 | 59.5kg | 18% | ||||
9/01/12 | 59kg | 17.4% | ||||
16/01/12 | 58.5kg | 16.8% | ||||
23/01/12 | 58kg | 16% | ||||
30/01/12 | 57.5kg | 15.3% | ||||
6/02/12 | 57kg | 14.5% | ||||
13/02/12 | 56.5kg | 14% | ||||
20/02/12 | 56kg | 13.5% | ||||
27/02/12 | 55.5kg | 13% |
Hmm... I lost my table grid but it's getting late so can't be bothered doing that again - will attempt to fix it for next time. My parents are staying with us at the moment and due to New Years happening in a couple of days, I'm not aiming for perfection with my diet until they leave (1st Jan). Until then I'll be good when I can but still enjoy a few treats (namely alcohol, Indian food & homemade apple crumble on New Years Eve - yum!). Come January first however, it's down to business. Audition season is around the corner and I need to be ready for it!
We're going away tomorrow for a couple of days but I'm bringing the computer so I'll attempt to be in touch during that time. As far as my first two days went - got to the gym and back into my weights. Yesterday's food was alright (went slightly over with calories) but was struggling with carb withdrawals and that made me extremely agitated (you'd think I was coming off drugs) and today *was* going well until dinner when I had bread with my roast chicken & vege then Christmas pudding & icecream & a wine cocktail for dessert. Let's just say I was celebrating the fact I only have 4kg to lose rather than 7! Seriously though - the second my parents leave there's no more funny business. Anyways gotta go pack and be up for a gym sesh before heading to Rotorua - bye for now!
the new beginning
Alrighty I'm back and I mean it this time! While I'm still aiming to achieve the same basic thing, I'm planning on going about it slightly differently. For one I'm going to stay more accountable and post daily (or at least account for each day) to say how my eating & exercise went & how I was doing emotionally. There are also going to be no "cheat days" (which always turn into cheap weekends)... If I want a treat, I have to work it into my daily calorie allowance - not blow the lid off it and have to work it off for the next week! My husband and I have realised that we're sick of slowing our progress by cheating 20-25% of the time. It's a waste of effort and we want to reach our goals FAST and stay there this time.
To help do this, I have written myself a diet plan (that is tried and true - I know it has stickability) for both work days and non-work days which incorporates both convenience and fresh food and the calories are tailored to suit how much exercise I (realistically) will be getting on those days. I will post my stats as always but won't be doing photos until the end as my 49 day challenge photos are still very recent and my focus is on what will be, not what is/was.
Argh, currently using the computers at the gym and it's not going so well today so I'll have to continue this later. Will post my starting points, end goal and (unlike last time) also short term checkpoints to help break my goal down into bite sized pieces. I shall return!
To help do this, I have written myself a diet plan (that is tried and true - I know it has stickability) for both work days and non-work days which incorporates both convenience and fresh food and the calories are tailored to suit how much exercise I (realistically) will be getting on those days. I will post my stats as always but won't be doing photos until the end as my 49 day challenge photos are still very recent and my focus is on what will be, not what is/was.
Argh, currently using the computers at the gym and it's not going so well today so I'll have to continue this later. Will post my starting points, end goal and (unlike last time) also short term checkpoints to help break my goal down into bite sized pieces. I shall return!
Monday, December 12, 2011
the recommittment
I think it's time I stop wallowing and as I like to say, "suck it up, sunshine". I've had every excuse for why I haven't been sticking to my plan and I'm even boring myself now. This post is to officially recommit myself to the 49 day challenge (3 weeks late, but better late than never, right?) and get back on track once and for all.
This week has been far from perfect but a definite improvement from the week before. I'm starting to get used to working again and other than some evening blowouts, my diet it starting to fall back into place. Exercise hasn't been an issue - I get tons of it working at a gym. The only thing I was missing out on was my weight training which I got back to yesterday and even got through today despite waking up at 4am and the weather being awful.
Anyway it's weigh-in day today... still frustrating having to do it in the arvo because it's not consistent with the earlier weigh ins but as today is my unofficial day 1, I'm not going to stress about the number and just focus on every day after this. Time to crunch down on the calories as that's the only piece of the puzzle missing right now! I look forward to posting some great results for you next week. Until then... if you need me, I WON'T be the one on the couch stuffing my face!
This week has been far from perfect but a definite improvement from the week before. I'm starting to get used to working again and other than some evening blowouts, my diet it starting to fall back into place. Exercise hasn't been an issue - I get tons of it working at a gym. The only thing I was missing out on was my weight training which I got back to yesterday and even got through today despite waking up at 4am and the weather being awful.
Anyway it's weigh-in day today... still frustrating having to do it in the arvo because it's not consistent with the earlier weigh ins but as today is my unofficial day 1, I'm not going to stress about the number and just focus on every day after this. Time to crunch down on the calories as that's the only piece of the puzzle missing right now! I look forward to posting some great results for you next week. Until then... if you need me, I WON'T be the one on the couch stuffing my face!
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
the post of shame
Here I am again... Not a lot to report right now. Been having a miserable time at my new job and not sure what I'm going to do about that yet. Haven't been sleeping enough & stress has been through the roof so that combined with my really long days has led to some terrible eating patterns (starving through the day and pigging at night and in turn blowing the calorie budget).
Managed to catch up on some lost sleep last night and the work day was marginally better. Haven't added up the calories yet but pretty sure my diet is a lot closer to being on track. Need to start eating more at lunch though so I can cut the carbs at night as they are no longer necessary.
Feeling pretty despondent about it all but trying not to throw in the towel. Will give my job until the end of the week then reassess what I should do. Will also be more diligent with my diet and more importantly get back to my workouts as they tend to help with both my calorie control and my moods (on top of the obvious calorie burning benefits).
Hanging on by a thread but not letting go, I promise. Stick with me and I'm sure I'll be back on track soon.
Managed to catch up on some lost sleep last night and the work day was marginally better. Haven't added up the calories yet but pretty sure my diet is a lot closer to being on track. Need to start eating more at lunch though so I can cut the carbs at night as they are no longer necessary.
Feeling pretty despondent about it all but trying not to throw in the towel. Will give my job until the end of the week then reassess what I should do. Will also be more diligent with my diet and more importantly get back to my workouts as they tend to help with both my calorie control and my moods (on top of the obvious calorie burning benefits).
Hanging on by a thread but not letting go, I promise. Stick with me and I'm sure I'll be back on track soon.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
the 9 day screw-up
Yes, I have been quiet for awhile and no, it's not because I've been busy at the gym. I went back to Australia for my brother's wedding (from Wed 23rd to Wed 30th) and it involved a lot of food and very little exercise. The simple fact is that unless you want to have a really crummy time, it's too hard to stick to a diet & exercise plan while enjoying a special event/holiday like that. That said, I didn't completely blow-out. I even started out trying to exercise but on my second day there I went for a run and seriously hurt my knee... exercise fail.
So here I am, not having put on weight but probably not having lost any either. The bad news is that I've lost 9 days of my challenge thus leaving me with less time to achieve my goals... The good news is that I start my new job tomorrow (can't remember if I mentioned it but I landed a job at a gym which will involve PT, group fitness, nutritional consultation etc) and will finally be able to lock in a routine and also stop sitting around on the couch for hours every day which always leads to boredom eating. I even had another company contact me again after I turned them down, begging me to come work for them so there's a chance I'll be working 6-7 days a week for awhile. Tiring, yes, but great for the bank account and also good to keep me productive... Somehow the less time I have the more I seem to get done!
Not much more to say at this point... My gym routine will stay fairly similar to what I planned before (6 days, 3 day split strength program, couple of cardio classes, 1 set sprints & 2 core workouts) and I will be aiming for 1500 calories although will attempt to throw some low days in there to make up for lost time. Will report in on Monday with updated measurements and hopefully some good news regarding sticking to my plan! Until then...
So here I am, not having put on weight but probably not having lost any either. The bad news is that I've lost 9 days of my challenge thus leaving me with less time to achieve my goals... The good news is that I start my new job tomorrow (can't remember if I mentioned it but I landed a job at a gym which will involve PT, group fitness, nutritional consultation etc) and will finally be able to lock in a routine and also stop sitting around on the couch for hours every day which always leads to boredom eating. I even had another company contact me again after I turned them down, begging me to come work for them so there's a chance I'll be working 6-7 days a week for awhile. Tiring, yes, but great for the bank account and also good to keep me productive... Somehow the less time I have the more I seem to get done!
Not much more to say at this point... My gym routine will stay fairly similar to what I planned before (6 days, 3 day split strength program, couple of cardio classes, 1 set sprints & 2 core workouts) and I will be aiming for 1500 calories although will attempt to throw some low days in there to make up for lost time. Will report in on Monday with updated measurements and hopefully some good news regarding sticking to my plan! Until then...
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