Oh yes, it's confession time. Apparently I'm not quite ready to release myself into the wild just yet. Tuesday - right on schedule for Katherine to slip back into one of her "I just need a bit of a treat" weekends (which last a lot longer than that "just one treat").
This weekend caught me off guard. For the first time in a very long time (no need to embarrass myself by saying just how long) I decided to go to a party instead of having a quiet Sunday night in. It was all very exciting... Feeling better about myself, ready to dress up a bit, yada yada yada. Then there was the question of whether to drink or not. Originally I said not... Then realised that because I'm so anti-social these days, I probably wasn't going to feel all that comfortable without a drink. So of course I found this great reduced calorie & alcohol wine and thought I was all set. Had already eaten dinner... Wasn't feeling emotional... Wasn't going to eat at the party.
And then we arrived. Tables and tables food - ALL my weaknesses (corn chips, maltesers, cupcakes, you name it) right in front of my nose. At first I resisted. Then the first glass of wine hit me and suddenly the food didn't seem so bad anymore. Then the second glass and of course the third... Mindlessly nibbling on food for hours while barely tasting it because I was too busy socialising to even register what was in my mouth. Disgusting and disappointing. Oh and then Sunday turns into Monday and due to waking up feeling disgusting anyway (oh and of course I'm already bloated with cravings due to it being "that time"), I caved AGAIN by eating at the movies and following that with Pie Face to take home. WHYYYYYY?!
Anyway, as I said earlier in this blog, there can't be any mental/emotional dwelling or punishment (although an extra few km on the treadmill tomorrow wouldn't hurt!) and I most definitely can't let these slip-ups undo all my work up to this point. I have realised that alcohol and food don't mix as the alcohol weakens your resolve. I have also realised since stating in one of my first posts that I can't ban anything from my diet due to the added temptation (or some lame excuse like that) ...it DOES have to be all or nothing! If everything out there is allowed, eventually I'll find an excuse to eat it. So we are back to a zero tolerance policy - the ONLY exception is if such food is planned for in advance and worked into my daily intake. Even then, that food should NOT include anything I can buy at a 7-11.
And so, my friends, my confession is that I messed up. I broke so many of the rules in the book. Movies + food = fail. Alcohol + food = fail. That time of the month + easy to reach temptations = fail. It's a dangerous world out there people... I for one will be more prepared next time! Until then - you can find me on the treadmill. I have about 2000 extra calories to burn this week. Goodie.
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