Unfortunately this post is proof that it doesn't take much to unravel weeks of work. I so wish this post could be upbeat and talk about how last weekend totally didn't matter and I got straight back on the horse, but this is my life and not a cheesy midday movie! This is not to say that I'm giving up - far from it... However I realised I spread myself too thin and sometimes you just need a break.
My biggest downfall this week was losing track of what I ate... I stopped documenting it after having a few bad days and next thing I know, the week's over and I feel like a pig. This also shows how important it is to develop habits. It's one thing to eat well and exercise while life is peachy, but when it all hits the fan (like this week for me... 2nd last week of having a job, planning to leave for New Zealand at the end of the month, mum visiting - yay! - then leaving - boo! - and finding out my credit card number was stolen and had over $2000 was racked up on it...) it is REALLY DAMN HARD.
Anyway, boo hoo, poor me, I had a bad week! I'm writing now to get it out of my system, turn it all around and start achieving my goals again. This is not a 100 metre sprint - it's a marathon that will last my entire life, so this week was a mere hurdle to jump over... Excuse the cheesy metaphors by the way - I'm struggling tonight! This coming week is my last week performing in Hairspray. Physically, it's a relief... My body has not appreciated doing the exact same thing 8 times a week for the last year! Emotionally... it's tough to deal with - life is going to be so different after this - new country, new job (hopefully!), new everything... But maybe that's a good thing. What better time to rewrite the rules? It's the time to reinvent myself and have a REAL fresh start!
Right this moment I'm letting go of the self-pity. I'm making a promise to myself to give it everything I've got between now and our last day in Australia - even though it's going to be a struggle to the very end - and I WILL arrive in New Zealand feeling good about what I've done and even better about where I'm headed! Sorry if this post was a bit of a downer, but I think it's important to realise just how important the emotional stuff is while you're on this journey... Yes, it's about science and numbers, but we're not robots. Don't be too hard on yourself... Learn to recognise the difference between lame excuses and genuine exhaustion/melt-down material. And on that note, I'm going to finish the rest of my movie then read some trashy magazines while soaking in a hot bath! Sometimes it's about the simple things.
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